My goodness. I think somebody over at Home on the Strange might have encountered one of those people who makes life so hard for those of us who really have invisible disabilities! Go on over and read the comic. I don’t want to spoil the surprise!
We did nothing, in this or any other life, to deserve illness. We aren’t being punished, nor are healthier people being rewarded.
I’m all for finding out about the physical and biological bases of our conditions, as that information is often a key part of finding the right treatment and preventing relapse.
Looking for a cosmic or spiritual cause, though, is a trap. It leads us into a downward spiral of blame, recriminations, doubt, and fear, with nothing positive to show for the loss of all that energy.
As difficult as it can be, let go. Illness is. We are living with conditions that cause pain, fatigue, and other problems, not because we’re bad people, but because the universe is as it is.
The less effort we put into that search, the more energy we have available to enjoy and improve our lives.
Use your energy to focus on your healing and joy!