My tarot.com daily horoscope said:
You are energized to do something fun now. You feel freer than you have in a while and you want to push out the edges of your playful spirit in a way that has recently been unavailable. Don’t spend too much time trying to figure out what any of this means. Just give yourself permission to play.
I find that very interesting, as I started doing one of the Artist’s Way exercises this morning and, quite simply, couldn’t. I was to think back to being a child and write about my favorite toy, favorite game, and the best movie I saw as a child. I got stuck there because I can’t name a thing. I have very clear memories of my childhood back to an extremely young age, but I don’t remember having a favorite toy or game. I’ve told Sam that I “wasn’t good at being a child” and still am not good at “playing.” I took care of my little sister. That was my childhood, for the most part.
I’m learning how to play, and Sam has been a wonderful example. I enjoy coloring. I like puzzles, but don’t have a place to do them very well. I’m not into toys so much. I like playing Mahjongg on my PC, but I only allow myself to do it when I’m on hold on the phone or something like that. Sam has brought me into the world of roleplaying games, and I enjoy them because they aren’t competitive. Most board games are, though, and I dislike competition.
I think I’ll be looking for a toy, though. Something. For Cindy.
